By David Ettinger
The Effects of Age
At age 64, I find myself in the same boat as several other older bloggers. I am becoming more and more the victim of physical ailments, but far more burdensome, I am ever more saddened over the “lostness” of unsaved grown children. We have raised our children faithfully in the Lord, but when they reached adulthood, they turned from God.
This is a bitter thing.
As these sorrows increase, I find myself drawing closer to the Lord, clinging to Him in my longing and sadness, desiring to know Him in new ways. I want to emulate this longing to know God just as intensely as did two men of the Bible, and to similarly pursue their same desire.
The Two Men
I consider the men I refer to the two most influential personalities in the Old and New Testament (with the exception, of course, of the Lord Jesus): Moses and Paul.
These two men were leaders of God’s new “institutions,” Israel and the Church. They both suffered physically (Moses a speaking defect, Paul a “thorn in the flesh”), and both prayed sacrificially for the salvation of their fellow Jews (Moses, Exodus 32:9-14; Paul, Romans 9:3).

But beyond anything, both had an amazingly close relationship with God, yet wanted more. Of Moses, Exodus 33:11 says: “The Lord would speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend.”
Paul walked closely enough with the Lord that at end of his life he was able to confidently affirm: “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day” (2 Timothy 4:7-8).
And yet, these intimate relationships were not good enough for them. They wanted more!
What They Wanted
It is both wonderful and informative to note that just following the verse telling us of the relationship between God and Moses that the latter told the Lord: “If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. … Now show me your glory” (Exodus 33:13, 18).
Moses was not one to sit on his laurels. Yes, God spoke to him “face to face,” but Moses was not satisfied; he wanted something far deeper.
Paul communicates this desire for a deeper relationship: “I want to know Christ – yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead” (Philippians 3:10-11).
Space prohibits the explanation of this passage, but the longing, the emotion, the desire, is abundantly evident. Paul sought a relationship with Christ beyond the realm of human experience. It required a surpassing of natural fleshly wants and longings and an entrance into an intimacy with God only He could give. Moses sought the same.
To know God more; to desire Him with every fiber of our being; to walk hand in hand with Him through the sludge of this human existence should be the foremost, burning aspiration of all believers, particularly those of us whom the Lord has permitted to reach older age.
In the flesh, such a closeness cannot be fully attained, but we should strive for it. Paul acknowledged this: “… I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 3:13-14).
Oh that you and I may press on to the goal of knowing God more!
David Ettinger is a writer/editor at Zion’s Hope, Inc., and has written for Zion’s Fire magazine since its inception in 1990.
vicklea
May 30, 2022
Striving daily to know God in a new and better way is a worthy goal and one we would all do well to emulate. Good post, David!
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Bruce Cooper
May 30, 2022
If that isn’t food for thought, I don’t know what is. Blessings, David!
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dettinger47
May 30, 2022
Thank you, Bruce.
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ken riddles
May 30, 2022
That’s exactly what it is all about. Lord we ask for more grace. 🙏🏼
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dettinger47
May 30, 2022
Thank you, Ken.
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bigskybuckeye
May 30, 2022
Amen David! As my own faith has matured, I feel my own sense of spending time with the Lord more frequently. Scripture shows us how much Moses and Paul valued their relationship with God, the Father.
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dettinger47
May 30, 2022
Thank you, big Sky.
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Lisa Beth
May 30, 2022
I’m with you brother. I’ve been meditating on John 15 for several days. I want to be a branch totally connected to the Vine, drinking in It’s life and thereby bearing fruit.
I know I can’t ‘make it happen’ but I pray for my heart to be solely drawn to the Lord.
May He meet us at every juncture in our heart, revealing Himself in greater measure.
Thank you for beautiful post David.
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dettinger47
May 31, 2022
Amen. Well said, Lisa Beth.
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heavensreef
June 1, 2022
YES, I was just praying the other day that GOD would continue to help me to be fruitful for the kingdom. Getting older is not for the faint of heart. But growing closer to the LORD is priceless. May our desire for HIM and HIS word increase all the rest of our days David.
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dettinger47
June 1, 2022
Well said. Thank you, Maxine.
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